When the door closes...

Before saying your last farewell to me
Please stop for just a moment, and look at me while smiling

Stay for just a bit, you who had given me light to me
Even if it's the end, I don't want to show you my tears so

You~
(While putting on a smile for you)
I say thank you, for making these happy memories
(Shining with an awkward smile)
I'm sending you away like this but

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

At the end of your long relationship with him
Please know that it'll be me standing there, waiting
Even if you ever get flashes of memories with him
I'll try to promise that I'll make you smile even more than those times but

You~
If you show me your tears
And say that it's difficult, because there is only farewell by that person's side
While I hold onto your hand, with a blank expression
I'm holding onto you like this but

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

My heart has become weak
Before I can be with you again
So that you
Won't see me while my tears come out
Please don't look back and just go

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

 

When this door closes

[FANCAM] BEAST (비스트) #79 Doo Joon @ Welcome to B2ST Airline Concert

Lunch on Sunday 12/12/2010...

Haha,suddenly this morning i have the mood to cook,donno why,i guess 1 of the reason is if i didnt cook,then i dont have my lunch as well as dinner,pity my stomach and i really dont want to eat Maggi mee almost every week,sucks even it do taste good,hehe...and easy to cook...well,get back to my lunch,damn i hate frying fish,i felt like i am having a war with the fishes and for sure they are the one who lose in the war la(since they are dead dy),but i felt pity for them because i did not take care of their body perfectly,haih...

 

My dear fried fish..

My overcooked telur dadar,haha...hey,i like it overcooked mar...

[091029] MAYBEE volume up RADIO BEAST/B2ST - GOOD MAN

Can I make it on time to get my passport ready before 3rd Dec?

Huhu...i am so damn sad i havent get my passport,making me feel so scared i wont get it ready before 3rd December,some more some said i have to get my birth certificate ready,damn it,my birth cert is in Kelantan, instead of KL,why i am so damn bad luck,tomorrow gonna call the Jabatan Imigresen to confirm it,God,please give mercy,hopefully MyKad is more than enough for my passport,haih......

Its 12th of September.......

I wanna remember today because 13th September will be another turning point of my life,i will have my first permanent job tomorrow. Tell ya,i am so damn nervous actually,really nervous,its been awhile since i ever wake up so early in the morning and going to office,that was the story of about three months ago,hehe...Its been 3 months since i ever goyang kaki at my home,doing nothing beneficial except gaining weight and increase my fat belly,well,its not something i should proud of anyway,ahaha...I know i know... Well, i really wanna thank my searching job agent as well as the hiring officer and the senior accountant of MFM for giving me chance to join the company,i do hope i will do well... God,please do bless me,i am looking forward for good working environment as well as working team...

Two Reasons Marriages Fail..

1. Men and women enter marriage with *storybook* expectations and limited training.
2. Men and women lack understanding about the general differences between men and women.

I Wanna Go Out from Malaysia!!!

How i wish it could happen,it needs more than just courage and the biggest problem would be MONEY,haha.. Thats all i can think of now,so i want to earn money,a lot a lot of money so that i can afford my trip. Is there any kind of job which can give me chances to fly and travel around the world without really spending a lot of my own self earned money?I was looking at my friend pics in facebook,she studied abroad for the past few years and for sure she went all around UK already,it seems like I was stucked in my own little world of KL, maybe for the rest of my life,I dont want..I mean I am proud to be Malaysian,i do,i always do,here is the most beautiful place i ever seen even i never leave here.. But i really want to see more,want to learn more about other culture..People say when you learn more,you will love more about your culture because you will see how different we are and how special we are..Venice Italy is one of the place i really want to go and i promised my mum that i will bring her there,Mum,wish me luck,i will try my best to bring you there with all the efforts i can give...

How is it possible boy looks better than girl?? so unfair...

DNA Karam

I get my first job today!!!

Its just like u get a lottery,I think its more than that. It really sounds like a victory, means i succeed in my interview and guess what,I din even do well in the interview coz it is so so last minute and I dont really well prepared for it, but still i got the job, so i guess i should give it a try, shdnt i?Haih...I am still thinking about the transport problem, I should have known it will be a troublesome before i go for it. But who knows they will really hire me, i thought i went for fun only at first. I guess its just a destiny, should i give it a shot? Still i am so proud of myself,haha...I thought i never get the job, well, as referred to my result, i am so damn sure i wont get it, I think they really dont have candidates and they damnly need employee,so here i come...hehe..What a lucky day for me and a lucky me...

告白。。

告白。。
喜欢是把对方当朋友
爱是想和对方谈恋爱
所以是的
我喜欢你   也爱你

把握的爱。。

不是我的型。。
他不是我交往过的男友里面最帅的，最绅士的，最特别的，
而且他的肩膀甚至有点窄，你知道我向来偏好宽肩膀的人。
可是我发现和他在一起的时候总是笑着的。
他的缺点我可以说上三天两夜也说不完，可是你知道最好玩的是什么吗？
当我数落着他的这些那些是，口吻也都还是笑着的。
我才不管那些女性杂志那些两性书籍怎么说怎么数怎么分类好男人坏男人的，
全部滚开别烦我，我只知道当我想起这个人，他的好他的坏，
我的心情都是甜的，我的表情都是笑的，那么他就是我的对的人。
所谓完美的恋人并不存在，完美的只是想要和对方一直走下去的那份坚定而已。
所以如果你遇到了那个对的人，请为她坚定，请不要胆怯，
是因为人生没有办法重来，也是因为，
在爱情里，很多人很多事很多珍贵，错过了就是错过了。
所以，为什么不把握？

喜欢与爱。。

喜欢和爱要怎么分辨？
简单，喜欢是友情，爱则是爱情。
喜欢有可能变成爱吗？
那爱变成喜欢呢？
两者有可能同时并存吗？
那对方肯定是你错过不行的人。。

Memory of Kim Hwansung (NRG)

ANTONIO (A LETTER SENT TO HEAVEN)

Hello, This is Hwansung (Antonio).
Because it's been so hot lately it's hard to study isn't it?
Following today I really really want to see the ocean.
I haven't seen the ocean very much in my life,
however every time I go and everytime I see it, it's just a feeling,
but I think it's really god.
I don't envy the people who live by the ocean very much,
Because its so close, you can't feel the specialness of it,
because you see the ocean everyday.
No matter how special it is, if its close you can't
feel the specialness very well.
Everyone, look around you one time.
And today, how does saying, "I love you" to the people that
you love the most, sound?


At that very moment I could sense that we were separating.
At this moment with tears I cannot cope with,
I'm letting you go within these past 2 hours.
I wasn't ready to let you go and to me

Your sunny smiling appearance was cute and funny.
But starting now there's a sadness I cannot see.
That's everyone's pain. The past happy joy.
Now your white face that I can't see and
Now your white fingers that I can't see
are left in a single flower nestled with spirit.
(Right now you're by my side)

For you I'm going to protect the dreams that we cherished.
Do you still not know? That we're by your side?
I can't touch you, but we can feel you.
Now I won't cry. Even in the next world,
You have to be happy, Antonio.

Don't be lonely, don't even be sad.
With the sky in between us, we're living separately
but I know that we're breathing the same air.
So I'm not going to be sad anymore.
Because even though we can't see you, you're always by our side.

Now your sunny smile that I can't see again and although
your clear eyes are sleeping comfortablely In the clouds
(you have to wake up again)

For you I'm going to protect the dreams that we cherished.
For you I'm going to protect the dreams taht we cherished.
Even if we've separated we can meet.
Now I won't cry. Even in the next world,
You have to be happy, Antonio.


GOODBYE MY FRIEND

Remember how we used to promise that we would always be together?
Did you have to leave just like that?
We comforted each other even though we didn't want to believe, I want to part with longing
I love you, your pretty smile, our precious past,
beautiful memories, all left in me
I will fill my tears in your name, which spells out eternity. I'll be sad just for today.
I won't cry anymore.
Goodbye My Friend,
I'll never hurt you again, I'll part with you smiling
Goodbye My Friend
Please be my light,
please become a shining star forever and stay by me.
Goodbye My Friend

I gazed at you.
A long time, for a very long time,
I stood alone by your side.
Right now, are we really getting farther and farther away? But I won't be sad, we'll be forever.
Please come to me even now, if I can feel your warm touch

Pray you can smile, pray you won't cry,
pray that you'll always be inside my heart forever
I love you, our fine friendship, your warm touch,
only keep those happy memories inside of you.
I'll fill my last prayer inside your figure that says goodbye,
I'll be sad for just today, now I don't cry anymore.

I know, even though you've closed your eyes beside me,
you're breathing inside of me.

I now leave my last in your soul, here,
I send my heart that's far away.
When the hurting wind blows, when sad leaves fall,
be by my side so that I won't forget you, My Friend
Right now in front of you, I'm writing a letter to the sky. Until the day that we can be together comes
I'll always send you a letter from my heart.
We'll always be by your side.
Goodbye My Friend.

p/s : these two songs were written by Myung Hoon NRG as a tribute to the late member of NRG, Kim Hwansung who passed away caused by pneumonia on 15th June 2000. It has been 10 years past and it was my first time to know it. I never go after Kpop news until lately and its really trembled my heart because he died only at 19years old..19 years old is only the beginning of our life,right? He will never thought 19 will be the end of his life i guess..I dont know him,but i felt sad for him,for his family and to NRG members..Losing a person you love is a pain, losing someone you love at a young age is more pain,somemore it is sudden death.. Watching the funeral made me cried all night long..From the lyrics,you can see how much his friend loved him..Kim Hwansung,can you feel it?

No matter where are you now, we wish you to be happy forever..May you rest in peace...

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

Also to my late great grandmas, late granddads, granddad, tiu kong Thong, kong Gi and other elders...May you guys rest in peace...

Buddhism...

“Having experienced birth, you also have to experience death, whereas, if nothing gets born, there is nothing to die. This is the way things are”

12种方法知道你喜欢那个人

12
晚上你跟他聊天后。。
直到睡前依然想念他


11
当你和他一起时。。
脚步会显得特别慢


10
你面对他时。。
会觉得很不好意思


9
当你听到他的声音时。。
你自然会笑


8
当然。。看到他。。
你会无视别人的存在


6
他是你的全部


5
当你看见他时一定会笑


4
为了见他，你会做任何事


3
当你读这帖子的时候，你想着谁呢？


2
当你一边往下读一边想他时。。
你可能甚至没发觉少了7


1
你现在会去看7的存在。。
然后傻笑



现在许个愿吧
你应该知道谁是你的唯一了吧

差一点

差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

遇上了错的人渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程走完了就分
错过了对的人,决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口,你是我等不到的路人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

~ 对的时间错的人，还是错的时间对的人？两个人相遇是一种缘分，

在一起又是另一个阶段，分手呢？对我来讲，那只是一个人长大的过程。。。

他到底是不是对的人？有谁可以确定呢？没人。。。

因为你只能用心去感觉他。。

My 2nd last day of practicum...

I am glad God made me destined to be in tax department, time passed so fast, now i will finish my 6 months practicum within 24 hours from now.. If you ask the feeling of mine now, i will say excited plus sad... I am happy i dont need to wait up at 6.30am to go to work already, but i will miss every colleague in Hals & Associates, will damnly miss them, they are a part of my life in the past 6 months, in the future, there will be not much time to see them as often as previous days, haih...I will miss you guys a lot, i do, i always will do.. Thanks for all the days and beautiful moments as well as for all the help you guys gave to me...It did meant a lot to me...To my manager, my supervisor, my seniors and colleagues, thanks for everything...

May God bless you all in every moment of your life...

Love ya...

Its hard to be a mum...

I watched a Korean drama this evening after work, damn sad...The story was like, the daughter and her husband lied to her family as well as the husband family that she got pregnant so that they can get married. Unfortunately, the in laws knew the truth that she wasnt pregnant for real, so the mother in law chased her out from the house.. For your information, the mother in law hated the girl so much even before they get married... For a mum who is as great as her mum, when the girl tell her mum that she will die if she cant be with her husband, mum really is willing to do anything including pay off her pride because she didnt raise her daughter to see her daughter died for a guy... So she went to see the in laws and even kneel down on her foot so that the in laws will forgive her daughter, thats what a mum will do, thats what your mum is willing to do coz she loves you more than her pride, more than her life...

A woman called mum is the greatest people in this world, she carried you for more than 9 months, giving her life away just to raise you up, hurts more when you are injured... To guys, you should appreciate woman who is willing to give birth to your kids because its not easy for girls to carry baby and take those responsible as mum...

Mum...i still love you so...My mum and another Mum who is watching me from the sky, who is always blessing me all this time eventhough i always being a bad girl, it tears me when i thought of all my wrongdoings which i cant get over till now..I am so sorry Mums...

God bless you!!!

29th Wedding Part 2...

Continued from the previous post: hehe...

I guess the most touching part from a wedding was to see the bride cried, God damn it, making me cried also when i saw her reddish eyes..Its tearing me a lot when they mentioned about she will JIA out, even it was only less than half hours journey from her house, but the feeling of you are leaving your house which you had been leaving for more than 20 years, Omo..i also cannot imagine how bad i will cry if i am to get married one day, i guess thats the reason i hope i am just married to a guy from Kelantan, i think thats more than enough for me, i cant bear leaving my mum and stay away from her on Chinese New Year,huhu...

To my senior aka colleague Wah Ce:

~ I wish you and your hubby will live happily ever after...

~ To God I pray, may your marriage be blessed till the end of time...

~ Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

29th Wedding...

Actually it is really my first time to see a Chinese traditional wedding from other place other than my hometown, Kelantan...Therefore, there are a lot to be learnt from here,i guess thats what i see from my colleague wedding on last Saturday..I just get to know that my colleague is Hakka, not Hokkien as mine, not even Cantonese as i may understand their language a little bit, at least better than Hakka which i dont even know one word of it..The night before the wedding, there is a combing hair ceremony. As they said, it should be the groom having the ceremony first, following by the bride right after the groom finished. The ceremony will be held by the elders in the family, most of the time, i think it should be the parents to do it, but in my colleague case, she said its her jiu mu will do it because her parents dono how to say the speech..The speech that i mean is some meaningful speech for the bride happiness and to bless the marriage, i think its something like that la in my definition,haha... Guess what, its totally different from my hometown tradition.. We normally having the comb hair ceremony in the morning, if not mistaken is about 5am in the morning and it is done by anyone who was born in Dragon year, i still remembered for my uncle wedding, we had my little niece who was aged about 8-10 years old that year to comb his hair.. So funny, she was not tall enough to touch my uncle hair so her mum need to carry her up...

That night, i sleep at 2am something because i need to do my part as the ji mui, i never thought there are a lot to be done, but i think other families sure will had more than us, hehe..i still think that our games are simple only... The most cannot tahan part was when i was helping Chia to write and draw on those disposable panties, it was damn embarassing for us, huhu... and yet i cannot tahan with my colleague sister, she was the one who bought the panties and all of them are sized M? God knows how guy can wear a M size with their slacks inside? and thats what happen the next day during the wedding, beh tahan her, she said tight is good, haha...

The next morning, on the wedding day, i was awake at 7 something and saw the bride already taking her shower, for your information, i was sleeping beside the bride on her last night before she gets married, haha..
What a lucky me, hehe, joking...Wah Ko please dont kill me, huhu... We had our last preparation for the game and get dressed... Tell you lar, the bride very beautiful, making me feel like i wanna get married also, haih..i wish... 9.30am plus, the groom reached with the heng tai... The first game we played are just the pumping exercise.. Singing plus pumping, haha... Having great juices and food after that, i think all are not tough enough, what to do, we cant have their stomach get sick, haha..but the maggi plus strawberry yogurt is quite disgusting, seeing how it looks also i cannot dare to eat, yakkss...

Next is the Q & A session, 6 questions with 5 seconds of time to answer, well, we just want to punish the heng tai, who cares if the groom gives the right answer at the right time? The punishment was makeover and model for the day, this section was what we had contributed for the night before, the disposable panties with cartoons and word on it.. and it was proved that the panties really cannot fir on them, they were so embarrased to wear, can see from ther hesitance which takes quite a long time before they wear it, haha... and they directly just sat on the chair after wearing them, too paiseh i guess...Some still very bad luck when he also need to put on lipstick, to have nicer shot,we get them a superb red colour or lipstick, for a nicer effects for sure, haha...

After that, just the game of eating grapes and so on...Then the traditional ceremony start, well, not forget to mention the MEI PO for the wedding, her voice was so loud to be heard from a far distance, haha... I was told that the groom dad just passed away last year, actually for a Chinese tradition, we are not supposed to have a wedding for a period of three years, but then they had this ceremony whereby both the bride and groom will do 3 circles in front of the house..They said for the spirit to come back to home,i guess...

You are the only one i need...

I wish...

I do wish...

I really wish...

Will it happen?

Haha...

Colleague wedding...

Omo...this saturday is the wedding day for my colleague,i wonder how she feels now..anyway i am nervous too because it will be the first time me and Chia will become the ji mui for a wedding,huhu,never do it before but i hope it will be fun...

See my ji mui dress with white theme colour :

How was it?How was it?

So damn cute...

Currently i watched a korean drama in KBS World with the title of Happiness in The Wind...Oh my God,the main actor so cute,i mean cute not for his appearance but for his character.You can say his character look exactly like Dao Ming Shi in Meteor Garden,the way he expresses love is extraordinary,which he didnt said it directly,i think that was his special personality...He was like very something,chinese said 别扭...like idiot...but still so cute...

His line was like the following :

~ When she said she went out to meet someone,he asked : what?who u meet?Is it Gicheol?(Gicheol is another guy who adores the girl also)*sounds so jealous*

~ I dont want you to talk with other guy...aniya...dont even see them...

~ I mean i dont want you to see other guy except me...

~ *soaking throat* I had make myself clear,now its up to you to make the decision...

~ *soaking throat again and now looking at the sky* ah...the weather today so good...*and turn himself away leaving the girl in shock*

Well...Korean guy always so romantic in line,i wonder if they really that romantic in real...Ahh...I wish someone will talk to me like that too,at least i know he really cares about me since he sounds so jealous...hahaha...

Having crush...Good?Not Good?

What will happen when the person you had a crush with suddenly talked to you?Hahaha...when i said happiness should be something that you grab for yourself,its suppose to mean that its fine if girl takes the first move right?

hehe...i do hope i have those courage to take the first move...It was like you are looking at a guy,some one you never know but you saw him almost everyday in the bus and you had crush on him...What should you do?He is not a friend,he is a stranger but you really wanna get to know him,how to approach him? It was like in heaven when you just get to stay so close to him and even get the chance to hear a word from him, even it was just a ...

Haha,its interesting just to think about it...and you know what,he is not as tall as you see him from afar away, thats what i experienced... 

Happy Mother's Day...

Mother...Who is a mother for you?Have you ever thought how you value her in your life?People said if you are a daughter,you will only realize how hard to be a mother when you have your own kids,i guess its the same for a son...

Do you still remember when you are first born to this world?Hehe,i guess no one will remember that moment anyways,haha...But i do hope you will have the chance to understand the feeling of your mother when she first gave birth to each of you,giving birth to a baby is not easy(as experienced people said so),its harder when raising them to be as grown ups as us today...How much tears,how much sweats,how much money,how much energy? I guess it was countless...Maybe raising up a kid needs more than establish a company...

Remember when you are small,who will always be there to teach you how to walk,how to speak,how to eat, how to read?Remember when you are sick,who are the one who hurts more than you?Who be there to take care of you?I always will remember and miss my mum the most when i was sick,because i know she will always be here for me and i will be fine...There are times when you cannot accept the decision of mum and you tried to spoke against her...I had my 叛逆 period during my secondary school when i spoke against my mum and i ended up slammed the door to express my objection...Its just the way i showed my madness,but then i felt regret and i end up writing an apology letter to her(i had those paiseh feeling to say sorry in person)..

I always wrote apology letter during those times whenever i did wrong...

There are times you should learn to understand your mum,i wont say she always right,but talking against her in loud voice is not a right suggestion to express your objection...As people said,think before you speak...When parents get older,they will become more sensitive than in their young age,they will start to think that maybe they will become your burden,they will scare that one day maybe you dont want them already,they will scare that if you get married,will you ignore them and become others son/daughter?they will worry that you wont love them anymore as you have your own spouse to love and new life...Because for each parents,children are the most precious treasure they had,no money or anything valuable in life will value more than their children...

I always proud to have my mum...Mum,to God i pray,hoping you will always stay healthy,stay happy...I promise you,i will be a good daughter for you...Mama,i love you so much...and sorry for all my wrongdoings for you...Happy Mothers Day!!!

Arggghhhh...

Damn it,so stressed out,my handphone,whua....two right button cannot use,huhu...now i dont know what to do,i guess i need to send to servis already,hai...so pity my handphone,i am so sorry i never take good care of you,i always so damn careless while using you,i am worse than worse...

Lately felt so bad,i see no good thing happening at all and i damly miss my mum...Lately so tired with life...Lately see bad side of myself,i see myself ugly,my heart is ugly...I...I...I...I sometimes hated myself for being so,I dont want myself to be like this...I wanna cry for the life i had...

Labor Day Holiday...

Damn it Labor Day is on Saturday,means no holiday for today and no replacement of holiday also,huhu...My first time as a labor,first time contribute to the KDNK of Malaysia ( hmnnn...i wonder how many decimal places of points the represents the percentage of my contribution,wuahaha) and yet i dont get special holiday for it,whua...

No plans for Labor Day,well,i should say i am too lazy,damn lazy to go anywhere even i can go..The whole week of five days in work i have kept thinking of i wanna spend my two dys of weekend at home and sleep sleep sleep.So as the result,i say no to Chia sister invitation to her birthday party(even i damnly wanna eat sate kajang and birthday cake for sure),Happy Birthday Ee Cien,hope you will be happy always,young always and may God bless you so..I even say no to my cousin who asked me to join her in Port Dickson....Hoho,can you imagine how lazy i am?So i end up blogging at home with my eldest brother sleeping in the living room and second brother is cooking in the kitchen,hahaha...

Before i forgot,today also is my eldest uncle birthday,hehe...Hope he always stay healthy and young,hahaha...

God bless you Tua Ku...

Actually i really wanna go watch IP MAN II,but i cannot find anyone interested to accompany me to watch the movie,haih...damnly sad,ehmm....should i go watch it alone?well,Midvalley is so close to where i stay,haha...but watching movie alone will make me looking like a loner,i looked more pathetic by then,haih...

hish,nevermind la,as my friend said : buy cd and watch at home enough lar,hehe...by doing so,you can save up to Rm10 plus,k?a movie ticket cost you about Rm12-14,havent count a combo of popcorn and drinks,or just buy a dvd at only RM5 and you can have whatsoever food you want,nasi lemak,mee goreng,mee maggi,bla bla...and you may crawling on the sofa,on the couch,hugging your bantal busuk with whatsoever pose you ever wanted which you cannot do in cinema for sure,haha...Haha,so choose?

My final result?Stay home online via blogging,thats what i do now,kia kia kia...nevermind,i have my Shinhwa in Love Letter at 5pm later...miss Eric...

Sunflower...

i’ll wait. i’ll be here. because you’re my last love
don’t forget, even if years later, you come to me, i won’t let you go
i only know of this love, i don’t know of any other
i’m a fool who only looks at you

 

no matter who i talk to, i only hear, see you.
i don’t know how to smile, how to forget.
i’m a fool who only knows of you
we loved so much, we really loved each other
if you leave, what should i do?

i’ll wait. i’ll be here. because you’re my last love
don’t forget, even if years later, you come to me, i won’t let you go
because i can’t die, i’m living. i’m living without you
it hurts as if i can’t breathe
someone told me that that’s how you live.
why are you making me suffer

i’ll wait. i’ll be here. because you’re my last love
don’t forget, even if years later, you come to me, i won’t let you go

it wasn’t easy to turn around
because i wouldn’t ever see you again
because memories flashed across my eyes
although my tears are welling up, i try to grab on
it needs to end now, love between us
the unforgettable memories that still live in me
although i can’t stand the pain in my heart
i’m sorry, that’s the only thing i could say

come back to me, my love, i’m calling for you breathlessly
the word i want to say to you: i love you, can you hear me
i love you, although you’re leaving me, you’re still my last love
i don’t care about others, i only need you, i won’t let you go. 

 

p/s : currently is my favourite song from Gavy NJ titled Sunflower...you can watch the video from this             link:   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZo5e9wuObk

Why guy always think they are smart enough to understand girl?

I watched a Korean drama currently which aired in KBS world, titled Dalja's Spring. The drama is about the noona-dongseng relationship,means young guy couple with older girl. At the time being,i was so much falling in love with the guy till i felt like i wanna order one of him for me,haha...but then we all realized perfect guy like him will never exist in this world. It happened that perfect guy also will never be perfect forever,i mean no one is perfect in this world,right?So even the guy...He made 2 mistakes that guy will always do:

• Girls so mind if guys take or consider them whether intentionally or accidentally as ju wai ren,means outsiders..Think of it,after what we had been through together,at the end,i just realized that i am actually just an outsider in your life and i cant even get into your family,your life?

• Girls so mind if guys hide something about the past(ex gf) from her..try to ask,how many girls would not like to know about the ex gf of her bf?i doubt not even 10% of girls in this world will not mind. I mean we do have the curiosity to know about the past of each other,right?The worse is when guy gets to work in the same place with his ex and he never tell you that as he thinks that since its just colleague-colleague relationship,so it is not matter to tell you...They are over smart right?

When they do wrong,they will say sorry,asking you to try to understand their stand now,but then do they really know what you want?Sometimes they just think of themselves,think of what is the best for me,not for us...Sometimes they just neglect to say I LOVE YOU,as they think that their action is more than enough to show their love..Yea,for guy to say those three words everyday can be a boring thing,but for those who never say,please do so,sometimes girls do need those words as the security of your love to her...

If any dissatisfaction happened between you and him,better talk it off and not just stay away from the problem by saying that what passed is passed,no need to talk over it again...Yea,it passed now but it didnt mean that the same problem will never happen again,its getting worse if you guys fight over the same problem over and over again and it will never end because you guys never settle it..Relationship is about sharing the happiness and sadness,about sharing the laughters and tears,about sharing the hardness and easiness in my life..When you mention WE or US,there are two alphabets there,means you need to have two people working on it..In some cases,you must tell your the other half about what you are thinking of coz you guys are separate bodies,he wont know what your thinking and you dont know whats his thinking...its important to tell each other what you want instead of just hoping he will understand you,bcz guy and girl are born to be different and have different thoughts...

Getting married is another stage of one life...Sometimes even when you coupled for more than 5 years and you decided to get married,you still end up by getting divorced in within 5 months,its pretty hard for two people living together...Maybe you should think about what you both want and then get to accept each other thoughts...Marriage should be about living happily ever after and not about getting a widow status...

Its good to have a mum at home...

Its school holiday,so i have my mum in town with us,huhu...really miss her so much,miss her cook,miss her everything..Do you love your mum?I am sure all of you love your mum so much..As for me,mum is my everything cz i do not have dad,i mean i do have dad,but since they divorced,i felt like i never really have a dad. Dad just a stranger noun for me,like no one,but he is somebody..A dad suppose to be a hero,the first hero in a daughter heart,but not for me..Well,i have to admit,i miss a dad...I should be glad that i knew who is my dad, better than others who never felt to know their dad,but human never know how to be satisfied,right?

I LOVE YOU,MUM...Thanks for all the love and care...thanks for brought me up...thanks for being there for me all the time...thanks for giving birth to me...I promise you i will be your nice little girl forever...

Chinese New Year is coming to town....hehehe...

hehe,learn posing lol

lCountdown to Chinese New Year,still have 4 more days to go,i miss my hometown actually,huhu...This year 1st day of Chnese New Year is exactly on Valentines Day,thank God no need fan how to celebrate it,hehe,this year still a single lonely Valentine,but then i am still so happy with it,long lived Single,hehe..

Without Saying...

i should have done that. i should have ignored it.
like something i couldn't see
i shouldn't look at you at all
i should have run away. i should have acted like i didn't hear it.
like something i couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to love at all

without a word , you let me know love. without a word, you give me love.
you made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
without a word, love leaves me. without a word, love tossed me away.
what should I say next ? my closed lips were surprised on their own
coming without any words
 

why does it hurts so much ? why does it hurts continuously ?

except for the fact that i can't see you anymore. and that you are not here anymore.
otherwise, it's the same as before.

without a word , you let me know love. without a word, you give me love.
you made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this
without a word, love leaves me. without a word, love tossed me away.
what should I say next ? my closed lips were surprised on their own
without a word, tears fall. without a word, my heart breaks down.

without a word, i waited for love. without a word, love hurts me.
I zone out. I become a fool because i cry looking at the sky.
without a word, firewell finds me. without a word, the end comes to me.
i think my heart was surprise to send you away without any preperations.
it came without a word.

without a word, it comes and leave.
like the fever before, maybe all i need to do is hurt for a while.

Will You Marry Me?

 Will you marry me? 

Will you live forever with me?

Whilst loving each other

I want to have a child that looks like me, another one that looks like you

And live, unhurt, for 1000, or 10000 years

To be honest with you, I like you more than you like me

And people say thats better between a man and a woman

I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you

If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you

I’ll love you forever, I’ll protect you forever

I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you

I want to love only you everyday

Will you marry me

 Marry me, there’s a feeling of happiness everyday

And I look forward to tomorrow with you

Why am I nervous

You are the best, no matter how much I look at you

Until our black hair becomes white

Until our lives end 

Even if I put water to your hands, I won’t put tears in your eyes

You as my half, I as your half

I’ll love you as long as I breathe

When time goes by and we get wrinkles

You and I will be together like now

I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you

If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you

I’ll love you forever, I’ll protect you forever

I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you

I want to love only you everyday

 You’re like the light which lightened up my dark life

The sound of soup boiling greeting me

The rain that falls on my thirsty heart

The poem that contains the meaning of love

The string of destiny that the heavens have allowed

The meeting between you and I was meant to be

You’ll be irreplaceable even if I was given the whole world

You’ll be the only person in my life forever

If you cry, if you’re having a hard time, if you’re hurt, I’ll hurt with you

 I’ll love you more. I’ll take care of you

I’ll love you forever, I’ll protect you forever

I’m thankful that I’ve met someone like you  I want to love only you everyday

Will you marry me?

P/S:I wish there is people somewhere out there will say these to me,huhu...

                I will marry you...

You and I...

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I’ll promise you
That I’ll never let you go

You, When I fell
you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze

And You, through those sad times
held my hands till the end of the world

I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile
I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others
But don’t be sad
Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend
and someone you can lean onto
I promise you that I’m be right here baby

I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again
I no longer fear when your breath holds me
No one in the world can replace you
You are the only one in I’ll be there for you baby

You and I together, It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Just you and I
Forever and ever..

2010...Happy New Year...

          2010,what it meant for all of you?what are you asking for in this new year?better health?better wealth?better life?i think thats what people will ask for,a better life,a better year of 2010 compared to 2009..I wish we all will have a better life this year,God bless we all...

          For the first time in my life,after 22 years,i went for a new year countdown in Sg Wang Plaza,wow...so happening...but cant really seee Bosco Wong as i wish,argghhh...its ok, the fireworks still captivated me so much,haha,even our view was distracted by the monorail railway,haha,since we stood exactly down the rail,wuahaha...

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