Memory of Kim Hwansung (NRG)

ANTONIO (A LETTER SENT TO HEAVEN)

Hello, This is Hwansung (Antonio).
Because it's been so hot lately it's hard to study isn't it?
Following today I really really want to see the ocean.
I haven't seen the ocean very much in my life,
however every time I go and everytime I see it, it's just a feeling,
but I think it's really god.
I don't envy the people who live by the ocean very much,
Because its so close, you can't feel the specialness of it,
because you see the ocean everyday.
No matter how special it is, if its close you can't
feel the specialness very well.
Everyone, look around you one time.
And today, how does saying, "I love you" to the people that
you love the most, sound?


At that very moment I could sense that we were separating.
At this moment with tears I cannot cope with,
I'm letting you go within these past 2 hours.
I wasn't ready to let you go and to me

Your sunny smiling appearance was cute and funny.
But starting now there's a sadness I cannot see.
That's everyone's pain. The past happy joy.
Now your white face that I can't see and
Now your white fingers that I can't see
are left in a single flower nestled with spirit.
(Right now you're by my side)

For you I'm going to protect the dreams that we cherished.
Do you still not know? That we're by your side?
I can't touch you, but we can feel you.
Now I won't cry. Even in the next world,
You have to be happy, Antonio.

Don't be lonely, don't even be sad.
With the sky in between us, we're living separately
but I know that we're breathing the same air.
So I'm not going to be sad anymore.
Because even though we can't see you, you're always by our side.

Now your sunny smile that I can't see again and although
your clear eyes are sleeping comfortablely In the clouds
(you have to wake up again)

For you I'm going to protect the dreams that we cherished.
For you I'm going to protect the dreams taht we cherished.
Even if we've separated we can meet.
Now I won't cry. Even in the next world,
You have to be happy, Antonio.


GOODBYE MY FRIEND

Remember how we used to promise that we would always be together?
Did you have to leave just like that?
We comforted each other even though we didn't want to believe, I want to part with longing
I love you, your pretty smile, our precious past,
beautiful memories, all left in me
I will fill my tears in your name, which spells out eternity. I'll be sad just for today.
I won't cry anymore.
Goodbye My Friend,
I'll never hurt you again, I'll part with you smiling
Goodbye My Friend
Please be my light,
please become a shining star forever and stay by me.
Goodbye My Friend

I gazed at you.
A long time, for a very long time,
I stood alone by your side.
Right now, are we really getting farther and farther away? But I won't be sad, we'll be forever.
Please come to me even now, if I can feel your warm touch

Pray you can smile, pray you won't cry,
pray that you'll always be inside my heart forever
I love you, our fine friendship, your warm touch,
only keep those happy memories inside of you.
I'll fill my last prayer inside your figure that says goodbye,
I'll be sad for just today, now I don't cry anymore.

I know, even though you've closed your eyes beside me,
you're breathing inside of me.

I now leave my last in your soul, here,
I send my heart that's far away.
When the hurting wind blows, when sad leaves fall,
be by my side so that I won't forget you, My Friend
Right now in front of you, I'm writing a letter to the sky. Until the day that we can be together comes
I'll always send you a letter from my heart.
We'll always be by your side.
Goodbye My Friend.

p/s : these two songs were written by Myung Hoon NRG as a tribute to the late member of NRG, Kim Hwansung who passed away caused by pneumonia on 15th June 2000. It has been 10 years past and it was my first time to know it. I never go after Kpop news until lately and its really trembled my heart because he died only at 19years old..19 years old is only the beginning of our life,right? He will never thought 19 will be the end of his life i guess..I dont know him,but i felt sad for him,for his family and to NRG members..Losing a person you love is a pain, losing someone you love at a young age is more pain,somemore it is sudden death.. Watching the funeral made me cried all night long..From the lyrics,you can see how much his friend loved him..Kim Hwansung,can you feel it?

No matter where are you now, we wish you to be happy forever..May you rest in peace...

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

Also to my late great grandmas, late granddads, granddad, tiu kong Thong, kong Gi and other elders...May you guys rest in peace...

Buddhism...

“Having experienced birth, you also have to experience death, whereas, if nothing gets born, there is nothing to die. This is the way things are”

12种方法知道你喜欢那个人

12
晚上你跟他聊天后。。
直到睡前依然想念他


11
当你和他一起时。。
脚步会显得特别慢


10
你面对他时。。
会觉得很不好意思


9
当你听到他的声音时。。
你自然会笑


8
当然。。看到他。。
你会无视别人的存在


6
他是你的全部


5
当你看见他时一定会笑


4
为了见他，你会做任何事


3
当你读这帖子的时候，你想着谁呢？


2
当你一边往下读一边想他时。。
你可能甚至没发觉少了7


1
你现在会去看7的存在。。
然后傻笑



现在许个愿吧
你应该知道谁是你的唯一了吧

差一点

差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

遇上了错的人渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程走完了就分
错过了对的人,决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口,你是我等不到的路人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

~ 对的时间错的人，还是错的时间对的人？两个人相遇是一种缘分，

在一起又是另一个阶段，分手呢？对我来讲，那只是一个人长大的过程。。。

他到底是不是对的人？有谁可以确定呢？没人。。。

因为你只能用心去感觉他。。

My 2nd last day of practicum...

I am glad God made me destined to be in tax department, time passed so fast, now i will finish my 6 months practicum within 24 hours from now.. If you ask the feeling of mine now, i will say excited plus sad... I am happy i dont need to wait up at 6.30am to go to work already, but i will miss every colleague in Hals & Associates, will damnly miss them, they are a part of my life in the past 6 months, in the future, there will be not much time to see them as often as previous days, haih...I will miss you guys a lot, i do, i always will do.. Thanks for all the days and beautiful moments as well as for all the help you guys gave to me...It did meant a lot to me...To my manager, my supervisor, my seniors and colleagues, thanks for everything...

May God bless you all in every moment of your life...

Love ya...

Its hard to be a mum...

I watched a Korean drama this evening after work, damn sad...The story was like, the daughter and her husband lied to her family as well as the husband family that she got pregnant so that they can get married. Unfortunately, the in laws knew the truth that she wasnt pregnant for real, so the mother in law chased her out from the house.. For your information, the mother in law hated the girl so much even before they get married... For a mum who is as great as her mum, when the girl tell her mum that she will die if she cant be with her husband, mum really is willing to do anything including pay off her pride because she didnt raise her daughter to see her daughter died for a guy... So she went to see the in laws and even kneel down on her foot so that the in laws will forgive her daughter, thats what a mum will do, thats what your mum is willing to do coz she loves you more than her pride, more than her life...

A woman called mum is the greatest people in this world, she carried you for more than 9 months, giving her life away just to raise you up, hurts more when you are injured... To guys, you should appreciate woman who is willing to give birth to your kids because its not easy for girls to carry baby and take those responsible as mum...

Mum...i still love you so...My mum and another Mum who is watching me from the sky, who is always blessing me all this time eventhough i always being a bad girl, it tears me when i thought of all my wrongdoings which i cant get over till now..I am so sorry Mums...

God bless you!!!