Bloody connection for which you cannot cut it off...

You know you will never be cruel to someone you loved,as whenever you tried to treat them bad,your heart will ache as well,maybe feels worse than the person you treated...

I tried to be bad to him,but i cried whenever i see his back,his lonely back...

Whenever i thought of him,my heart is in pain...

I know i can never throw him away from my life,as he is always a part of family... 
Do you know the feeling of when you love someone,but they always disappoint you at times?
And do you know the feeling of being so helpless as you cannot do anything to help him?
I even do not know how to give him a moral support...
I feel so bad for him, as i can give so much energy to others yet i am in loss of words whenever i encounter him...
Why we are so much apart, when our blood is the most identical?

Why we are such a pity child?
 

When the door closes...

Before saying your last farewell to me
Please stop for just a moment, and look at me while smiling

Stay for just a bit, you who had given me light to me
Even if it's the end, I don't want to show you my tears so

You~
(While putting on a smile for you)
I say thank you, for making these happy memories
(Shining with an awkward smile)
I'm sending you away like this but

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

At the end of your long relationship with him
Please know that it'll be me standing there, waiting
Even if you ever get flashes of memories with him
I'll try to promise that I'll make you smile even more than those times but

You~
If you show me your tears
And say that it's difficult, because there is only farewell by that person's side
While I hold onto your hand, with a blank expression
I'm holding onto you like this but

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

My heart has become weak
Before I can be with you again
So that you
Won't see me while my tears come out
Please don't look back and just go

When this door closes
When the image of you disappears
I'll probably spend the day in tears
Because of the memories with you, I'm left alone
I wish that you'll be happier

When I let go of this hand now
I'll no longer have any reason to smile but
When I see you smiling
In another's embrace, I'll try to smile

 

When this door closes

[FANCAM] BEAST (비스트) #79 Doo Joon @ Welcome to B2ST Airline Concert

Lunch on Sunday 12/12/2010...

Haha,suddenly this morning i have the mood to cook,donno why,i guess 1 of the reason is if i didnt cook,then i dont have my lunch as well as dinner,pity my stomach and i really dont want to eat Maggi mee almost every week,sucks even it do taste good,hehe...and easy to cook...well,get back to my lunch,damn i hate frying fish,i felt like i am having a war with the fishes and for sure they are the one who lose in the war la(since they are dead dy),but i felt pity for them because i did not take care of their body perfectly,haih...

 

My dear fried fish..

My overcooked telur dadar,haha...hey,i like it overcooked mar...

[091029] MAYBEE volume up RADIO BEAST/B2ST - GOOD MAN

Can I make it on time to get my passport ready before 3rd Dec?

Huhu...i am so damn sad i havent get my passport,making me feel so scared i wont get it ready before 3rd December,some more some said i have to get my birth certificate ready,damn it,my birth cert is in Kelantan, instead of KL,why i am so damn bad luck,tomorrow gonna call the Jabatan Imigresen to confirm it,God,please give mercy,hopefully MyKad is more than enough for my passport,haih......

Its 12th of September.......

I wanna remember today because 13th September will be another turning point of my life,i will have my first permanent job tomorrow. Tell ya,i am so damn nervous actually,really nervous,its been awhile since i ever wake up so early in the morning and going to office,that was the story of about three months ago,hehe...Its been 3 months since i ever goyang kaki at my home,doing nothing beneficial except gaining weight and increase my fat belly,well,its not something i should proud of anyway,ahaha...I know i know... Well, i really wanna thank my searching job agent as well as the hiring officer and the senior accountant of MFM for giving me chance to join the company,i do hope i will do well... God,please do bless me,i am looking forward for good working environment as well as working team...